In all of my life, I never really stopped long enough to realize how much my action actually hurting another and alienating them against me. One-night outside rain was pouring down, and here I was moving out of Missouri and back to Florida. My car was full of my belonging with two of my dogs. My parents were complaining about letting the dogs sleep with me on their bed even though I was faithfully paid my rent each month. So I moved out. Then moved into a friend’s house only to move again because she wanted me to be the maid. Normally with normal people with some sensibility in their head would endure it so that they can live free and save their hard-earned money. Well to make a long story short, I ventured into the chilling and stormy night back to Florida where I left only few months back.
The relationship I had with this lover taught me a valuable lesson. The entire time I blamed myself for leaving him but in retrospect, I did the right thing. This man is selfish and only think of himself and his own career. However, I had doubted so I detour back to the place where for 4.5 years living there, leaving me broke, sad and alone.
I should have known when he could not pet the dogs without washing his hands – any man who doesn’t love dogs you may want to stay away from. Well maybe it’s a little prejudice but how could anyone not to love dogs. But then again, I really don’t care for cats that much … but I don’t hate cats though and wash my hands if I pet it???
I called him on the way to Florida, he refused to even speak to me on the phone – so I called an ex that I gave $176,000 to buy the house back which once belong to me in the first place to see if he has any empty room, which did not rent yet. Luckily, he did and although at one time he stayed at my home for six months did not pay single dimes and destroyed the entire house … he charged me $60.00. To be honest, later he did write me a check for $50.00 – so technically he only took $10.00 from me for two nights at his house, which was bought with my own money.
Then the devil came calling, and the booty calls – and we got back together for few nights – well this man had not had a lot of luck with money which I honestly believed because of his non willing to think of others and although 4.5 years, I was with him and helped him resuscitated his failing career, he did not thank me for it – he told me later that was the rent I paid – I spent at least over 24,000 to that dump – well it seems a lot of money, but if you added up $2000 per month for 4.5 years – hummm …. it was a lot of money.
So he asked me again for money … you could never tell this type of man from the way he talked and the way he looked. He seems very honest, and he is. I had not caught him lied to me for anything, but you could not believe you could be that stupid – I just had the heart for the passionate people. After all, he was trying to rework his career, and you know it does cost a lot of money for gears – I believe and not sure if I have any proof that once he made money, he would me any … so I moved out of my current place and moved into his dump so to help out with rent.
The sex is very good – and the intimacy is great – but this man doesn’t like dog – and he smokes way too much and … and… and…
So do we love other people unconditionally and allowing them to do whatever the hell they want – or do we judge??? And do I judge him though?
I don’t know only that at this very moment- I am all alone with my dogs who are constantly giving me joys and love. And I have not still found a steady source of income yet- In as much as I spent that money on this man – most of it a friend of mine loaned it to me. So now the debt is on my head, and this man has not ever thanked me for anything.
I felt honestly sad for my life – but then again, when I said to myself “I AM ENOUGH” there is something so amazingly happening in me. Yes, I AM ENOUGH. I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO IS THERE FOR ME –
If you read this article … and you’re Aquarius, I advise you on few things. .. Don’t run away from relationship and/or destroy it – burn the bridge – you never know when you may need that person again. Furthermore, do not be so gullible – people do not always have your best interest at heart … but then again, you can make the kind of friendship that lasts forever.
In my personal story above, I spent money on this lover – and my friend allowed me to borrow from him – at the end; the debt is on my head, and this person is still complaining about shit – wake up Aquarius – see people for who they really are and not what you wish them to be.