Ok last time I posted I hit the bottom. I had negative money in the bank, and I left my honey. At that moment when I made the decision I must leave now or forever hold my peace, I hit bottom. I wanted to see if the area where I live brought me bad luck or the man I was with brought me bad luck or, etc. and etc. and etc.
So I took what I could take, rented a car and headed to my mother’s house. Well although I felt I was in turmoil internally I felt some kind of relieves. Well, what could go wrong?
My home life was upside down – and the man I was with had to fence his life all on his own. Amazingly, he landed a contract that was so huge it carried him through life for few months. I, on the other hand, landed a contract on my own – worth to the tune of $100k a year, free housing, and two dogs to keep me warm in the winter month.
We still talked and probably we find our way back to each other. Maybe I was right – maybe the place was jinxed – I look so much better than I was in years. I lost few lbs and I got my groove back. I still love him a lot, and we learned a lot about each other during those months we are apart. And now amazingly, we will still be not together but our finances are so much better.
Let’s, me ask you question my readers – do you think love is more important than money? Alternatively, money is just as important as love??? Well, love is the most important in my book. However, love does not mean possession and hold tight to each other afraid others may steal him or her from us. Love allows a person to do what they feel is important to them, and we just keep loving them. Now at this juncture having seen the angel faces of my dogs and the love of my honey, I feel that I made the right decision to leave and to save my soul – At the very least, I know what we did have is true – true love can never die, and it can only transform.
Do I do it again? Yes in a heart beat but honestly I would not or could not survive another episode – maybe this time we talk it out, and we find the way to make it work – sometimes the only way is to leave –